a little story from home

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image by Jerry Jenkins

At the time you read this blog, I have been in my home since last month. I come here thinking that I would be literally jobless, staying at home and doing nothing. Yet what I found a month after is how busy I can be even when everything in this world is going literally downhill.

We all know how chaotic this year is, many things have happened in each and every country that might affect our day to day life. To be honest, it is not easy to get through this hard time with so many people seems so reluctant to wear mask and keep a safe distance from each other. Yet here we are living the life we had today in the middle of this chaos.

Moving on from that stressful topic…

After graduating, I fully know how I will be so confused about my life and literally clueless on where to go or what to do. During the first couple of months of the pandemic, I decided to focus on my own self development, that’s why I start to work out and taking care of myself more. I use an apps that I have neglected due to my laziness to track my workout. It is not going smoothly, trust me…

With how easy my mood change, it is really hard for me to keep doing my exercise while I can’t even look at myself in a positive way. I keep going back and forth, it is like a fight between me and myself. A fight on whether I keep on living the life I have like it won’t affect me negatively or trying to fix some habit for a better version of myself.

It was quite a struggle :’v

But! I finally lost some weight! It’s a 2-month worth of exercise and my unhealthy one meal a day kind of diet… (please do a healthy diet!)

When I am finally home, I can finally eat three meals a day and started to take my healthy life even more serious. Controlling my snacking habit, taking care of the food I eat and obviously! Keep doing my exercise.

Just like what I say previously… I expect myself to be so jobless that I need to make a time table for every activity I do and… I’ve got plenty of time to look at funny video of cats in the internet. Then December coming sooner than I expected that I figure it out I wasn’t ready for this hectic month to start.


image by Isah Kambali

From thinking that I will have nothing to do, my schedule slowly packed with various activity related to Christmas. From singing to another singing, playing music, making monologue script and back to singing. Added with me training young people here at my church for vocal. At some point, it is getting tiring and I always honest about my condition since I know my limit but at the same time… it felt somehow rewarding.

Seeing how much happiness could bring from one simple activity, even when it is tiring, I was still able to enjoy it. Turn out I just love to help other to be a better version of themselves as well… I’m not a perfect teacher nor a perfect student; as we stumbling through our way to the top, there might be some setback that make me not feel good about myself but! I start to learn how to forgive myself instead of making excuse and then trying to get better after that!

No matter what you do or where you at today… I hope in the middle of this pandemic, you never stop to be the better version of yourself, I hope you’ll never stop to grow up and develop yourself as you go on about your life.

Live your life joyfully, see different perspective every day and stay positive!


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